I've been on lone kid duty for four days now while Jon is at the Final Four in St. Louis. I haven't gotten much done. Well, I did go to two birthday parties, as well as a birthday dinner at Chuck E Cheese. And I've watched The Incredibles 39 times. In between getting sippy cups of juice and sitting on the footstool in the bathroom because a couple of the other inhabitants of this house are scared of being on the potty alone too long, I managed to finally get over to the CSS Zen Garden.

Wow. I don't know what else to say. Just wow. As I slowly clicked through design after design, my heart alternately soared and sank. I'd think excitedly "Oh my God, that's stunning!," then "Will I ever be able to do designs even half as good?" The range of designs and the possibilities are thrilling, yet sometimes I think I'll never know enough to do the same kind of work.

Maybe I'm just tired from mopping up milk spills and spraying Bactine. Or maybe I'm a little discouraged because I finally admitted that I've been cheating and doing most of my graphics in Paint Shop Pro, instead of Photoshop, because it's so much easier.

Photoshop is a huge, beastly gargantuan of a program. But I know I need to be able to use it. Too many people have told me how powerful it is. So, I'm back to the drawing board. I'm going to learn this software if it kills me.

Is it ridiculous to think I'll someday be able to design sites like those in the CSS Zen Garden when I can't even figure out how to do touch ups in Photoshop?